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Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the Glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Nelson Mandela: 1994 Inaugural Speech
Summary
* "The Portland Highway Miracle."
* The Energetic Centers and Fear.
* The Throat Center.
* Courage: Emotional Intensity turns on mutation.
* Beyond Courage.
* "The Angry Dogs."
* "Walking With the Buffalo".
* "Sauce For the Gander".
* Spirit's Aid requires More Inclusive Intentions.
* The Spiritual Warrior.
* The Spiritual Magician.
* Fear of the Dark.
* "The Sorceror's Apprentice".
The Portland Highway Miracle
Completing our business with the Portland gallery, Hal and I head north to Seattle. Construction detours us to another route, but this freeway is also under repair. We must tow our RV in the left-hand lane with traffic moving in both directions, separated by a row of concrete blocks. After awhile, the freeway starts to curve sharply to the left, putting the traffic ahead of and behind us out of sight.
As we drive along at sixty miles an hour, a semi-truck suddenly pops into view rounding the curve ahead of us. It’s in the same lane as we, heading straight at us! We have only a few seconds to decide what to do. Concrete blocks sit to our left. Other cars race to our right and behind us. The semi is in the same situation__ there is no place to go.
I feel the adrenalin erupt when the semi draws close enough for us to clearly see the driver’s face__ as chalky and terror-stricken as our own. We can’t run or hide from this and we can’t fight it. Only a miracle can save all of us.
"Hell! There’s no place to go__ we’re going to crash!” yells Hal.
Totally convinced we‘re about to die, I no longer fear death due to earlier NDEs__ I’m willing to go if this is my time. But I still fear for Hal and others in the vehicles near us and for the possibility of horrific injuries and pain. Fear paralyzes us and everything seems to happen in slow motion. I pray Spirit for all to be spared.
“ I love you, dear.” I say to Hal, and send Unconditional Love to everyone in all the cars and the truck.
I feel myself drift into The Zone. A strange detachment and peacefulness flows over me. There is no judgment or blame assigned to the situation; I just forgive whatever, whoever might need forgiveness, feel Oneness with All That Is and resign the outcome to Spirit. Everything glows with a white light as the truck’s huge grill looms up in front of our windshield. I close my eyes, bracing for the impact.
But there is no crash.
I open my eyes and the semi is gone. In the side view mirror, I see its rear doors disappearing down the freeway behind us.
"What happened?” I cry out.“How come we didn’t crash?”
"I don’t know”, says Hal.“We__ we just seemed to__ pass right through each other.”
Somehow, a miracle happened. We give thanks.
Part of us yearns to make magic, to laugh and sing to the stars, while another part whistles in the dark and ties knots in our stomachs.
There’s a fine line between fear and the thrill and excitement of facing the unknown. We can cross over this line with Unconditional Love. Even the most frightening episodes have the potential to expand our creative skills toward miracles. Emotion is seldom recognized as being on a par with the qualities of body, mind and spirit. Disciplined physical actions can lead us to increased mental and physical development. Emotion, however, is the only direct path connecting us with Spirit/Creative Force.
There are really only two emotions: love and fear. We cannot feel both in the same moment. Either we experience terror, or we embrace love. All negative emotions stem from fear. We’re engaged in a constant struggle between our antiquated boogeymen and our evolving angel-hood, trying to tame the dragons of our daily existence. Fear weakens creativity by paralyzing both mind and body, cutting us off from Higher Self and distorting creative effectiveness.
Most humans react to crises from a state of numbness, perceiving only what supports preconceived notions__ basing decisions on dredged-up fears from the past or or an imagined dire future__ or on someone else’s answers. Not much can wake us from that programmed sleep unless it impacts us intensely. (32)
Energetic Centers and Fear
Each bodily energy center (Figure 2) holds a different fear. The three lower centers deal with our physical, material needs and desires.The lowest, the root center is where we fear for our very lives. Through the second chakra, the sacral center, we worry we’re not “good enough”, “attractive enough”, “rich or smart enough”. The 3rd center, the heart is where we fear we are unlovable, can’t see the love around us, or are afraid to love others fully because of past wounds. Ancient shamans used the heart, the center between the solar plexus and the throat center, to invoke spiritual magic. The solar plexus is where we rev up the body’s vibrations to do Inner Technologies, and the throat center projects those energies to the outer world.
The solar plexus is our localized, personal point of power. It’s where we fear relationships, feel disconnection, abandonment or alienation __or fear Earth or her lifeforms. We want relationships, so we go around with the solar plexus wide open, hoping to attract a partner or a helper; but if our consciousness hasn't yet expanded, we feel hurt by the judgments of others. When this personal creative center is open and love is absent, it’s painful,__because from the solar plexus, the creative drive next rises to the heart which understands love and wants to see love everywhere, and we fear the anguish that unrequited love can bring. (67)
Ego dwells in the solar plexus; it’s where we find out if we’re not completely in charge. We each have a specific role in the flow of creation, and we are fulfilling that role regardless of whether we want to or not. And that's not comfortable in this world. Solar plexus knows things: it knows when another person thinks in threatening ways, knows how to be in the right place and on time, knows when someone wants to fit us into their mold. It connects with the present and recognizes the true flow of Spirit through the Universe. (67)
The solar plexus can also transcend fear. It’s where we recognize Spirit/Universe. Spirit is the original Creator; Universe is Creator's creation within which Spirit functions. During a falling dream, NDE or OOBE, solar plexus shows us we are far more than just a physical body, a mind, a socially accepted image or a list of desires. It lets us out for a bit to show us another side to life than we normally experience, but its silver cord always reels us back.
The throat is Higher Self’s second creation center__ our voice a sacred creativity tool. The words and vibrations we project to the physical world are based on beliefs, feelings, thoughts and attitudes embodied within us. "Karma" requires that whatever we project we must one day re-absorb. If we’re still denying free will, believing in a stern deity who controls our free will, who rewards or punishes, then we are still little kids scared of the Big Boogyman, and our voice subliminally vibrates that message to others. When we’re vibrating in harmony with universal purposes, everyone senses it in the resonance of our speech.
We think someone or something else makes us angry, lonely or afraid, but those feelings come from deep within self, and others subconsciously pick up on them. If we don’t Love Self, we actually feed that negative message to others through our energy fields and voices. Wouldn’t they react with similar words and actions? We thereby attract the very things we most fear.
The throat center is where we fear speaking our truths to others, fear sharing spiritual truths that might shock others. It’s where we’re afraid to firmly, yet kindly assert ourselves when it’s crucial to do so. It’s also the center through which we express Unconditional Love and ask Spirit for guidance during challenging situations, projecting our inner vibrations through our voice’s frequencies.
We draw negative people and situations to ourselves in four ways: 1) they mirror our unconscious or conscious fears (like attracts like), 2) they present opposition because we expect conflict, 3) they mirror what we judge most in others and in self, or 4) they indicate when we need to change life’s directions. We provoke fear and mistrust, even harm self or others, through words that make us targets for their frustrations.
As we evolve, deliberately attempting to overcome fear, the time comes when we find ourselves confronted with each threatening scenario we ever imagined__ until we learn to love ourselves and others enough to deal with them appropriately. Consciously recognizing emotions sets us up for clearing the fear and changes local energy fields to allow for something other than a flight-or-fight response.
Courage
Fully half of our brains are devoted to creativity, but panic blocks our access to it. Few of us were taught how to handle fear. Either we learned from those near us to fight or flee in difficult situations, or to suppress feelings; i.e., "you shouldn't feel that way!"
When we act out on feelings, hoping to change the outside world to protect ourselves, we essentially close down to a full experience of that feeling. More subtle forms of emotional avoidance are worrying__ dwelling on a sorrowful past or a dreaded future; controlling__ living according to rigid beliefs; judging self and others, or constantly seeking meaning by talking about our emotional problems instead of taking steps to resolve them. And last, but most popular__ relationship dependencies. All are addictive ways of avoiding emotion.
Professional artists enter work in competitions and exhibitions to attract patrons, build a resume and gain recognition through important shows and galleries. Rejection becomes an almost daily experience. Artists must continually call on all their strengths and resources to lift themselves out of puddles of self-pity and once again prepare to meet the ancient enemy: fear of failure. We have to accept the challenge to wrestle our dragons day after day by using our inner resources. Through the centuries, artists have unleashed the power of creative skilla to tap the magic within. By applying them to everyday affairs, we become Artists with Life.
Perhaps it’s all right to feel fear; it has it’s usefulness. It warns us of things that are dangerous or inappropriate. It urges us to carefully consider future plans and actions. It points us toward something greater than ourselves, and it may be that instead of choosing between love and fear, we can somehow integrate the two into a more expanded emotion.
Emotional intensity__ whether bliss or terror__ turns on a mutation process. Gregg Braden's audio, “Tools for Inner Technologies”, tells us that we humans can entrain light with our emotions. Strong emotional states can even regenerate DNA, activating new talents and abilities. During these End Times, if we can't Shift with Earth using Unconditional Love, then perhaps we can do it with Extreme Terror.
The beta brain wave state is dominant in our normal condition of alertness. As with the Portland Freeway incident above, we may panic when we find ourselves beyond familiar boundaries. Ego lives in the beta brain wave state. However, nothing in alpha, theta or delta brain wave states supports the ego; it feels threatened, and it is. But, recently, Tom Kenyon of Acoustic Brain Research, Inc. tells of High Beta, a state of extreme alertness, which also relates to some states of anxiety. (39) This suggests that fear, tempered with Unconditional Love, temporarily lifts us to expanded states where we can grasp more creative solutions. Even the most horrendous experience can hold incredible energy for change. The desired state is seldom reached easily, for the outcome's not all important__ it’s the striving.
Each of us is unique and feels our solar plexus effects in a different way__ and if the journey isn’t pleasant, it’s because we make it difficult. (67) Rooted in competition, we think we must prove ourselves strong and superior, so we make our learning experiences unpleasant to test our fortitude. Or, perhaps we turn judgmental, or take a victim position during a challenging predicament. If so, need we be surprised to find ourselves being challenged, judged or victimized in return?
Do we need to re-define fear? Without fear, there is no courage. We speak of "Overcoming Fear", but that doesn't necessarily mean we will never feel fear again__ it means we will not allow Fear to pull us into negative choices or behaviors. Panic arrives when we most need to produce creative resolutions, develop some more appropriate type of inner control, or allow the Creative Force to perform miracles through us. It’s important to accept fear for what it is__ not as a sign of impending disaster__ but as a signal from ego that we have ventured beyond our comfort zone, and need to resolve some issue. Higfher Self has the solution.
We can use our logical minds to analyze fearful situations and possibly find solutions, but when we have no prior experience with an event we have no known solution to move toward __only the past to pull away from. We can lift fear to a place where true clearing can occur by first using our mental nature to get educated about the frightening issue, then feeling it fully. This opens us to possibilities we never knew existed. Later, we can return to daily life and take the necessary loving action to test it out.
Everyone has physical discomfort from injury or illness at some stage of life. As Christ demonstrated, because we are really energy beings, the material body may be unimportant to our consciousness evolution. It is a vessel holding emotionally-transformable DNA that can be passed on to descendants. Sometimes our paranormal encounters cannot be analyzed; we simply feel them fully, let them exist just for now, believing that in the appropriate time and place, the difficulties will be understood and transformed. Rainer Maria Rilke, German poet and mystic of the early twentieth century, said, “Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our love." It often seems that Life asks us to kiss a lot of frogs before we materialize any princesses.
We have a right to our own feelings, but we don’t have to let them control us. Overriding fear begins with first recognizing when we are afraid and then allowing it. We can own our fear without necessarily accepting the negative circumstances behind it. Once we recognize that the source of power is within us, we no longer need to engage in conflicts where each combatant tries to pull power from his oppponent by proving he is "right".
Resistance or denial lies behind most of the pain in any negative emotional encounter and prods us toward appropriate change. Unreleased emotional stress piles up inside until it erupts into the physical. Instead of dismissing the fear, we can feel it and accept it. Find the place in the body that holds the fear and breathe through it, letting the negative feeling do what it wants. It may become intense. If so, try to endure, for the best time to examine oneself for clues to resistance is when emotion is strongest. Let breath clear out the feeling’s lower energy and replace it with Unconditional Love.. As fear wanes, we’ll sense a change within, and we’ll know we’ve released the negativity. It may take several sessions to fully clear traumatic fear, but its hold on us will gradually lessen, and as we move toward that release, we feel the power of the Creative Force moving through us. (70)
Beyond Courage
Acting bravely in the face of danger has long been considered honorable and just, but courage may be only the first step towards eliminating fear. Remember__ Emotion belongs to our spiritual nature, holding tremendous force for change. When we feel hurt by others, we can recognize the hidden agendas being triggered. Example: if we’re upset because we read how the government is spending our generation’s social security funds, we can realize it’s probably based upon our belief in a non-abundant universe.
A most important step when doing any Inner Technology is to ask permission of Higher Self before trying to generate unusual outcomes. Higher creative skills can override fear when we follow a process similar to crafting art: using any technique we know to enter the Zone__ sitting still, meditating, praying, listening to music or walking in nature. After awhile, emotion rises as we begin to pull in Divine Love and release negativity from within. Any negative feeling can be dealt with in this way. It doesn’t matter if it’s from something that happened today, forty years ago, or forty thousand years ago. It’s ripe for examining, feeling to the max and releasing. Feelings that return again and again are begging to be transformed at those times.
“Our minds unconsciously select particular futures to actualize from among an infinite number of possible futures which reside in an invisible dimension of information. This dimension has been compared to a 'universal mind' and it is quite literally 'supernatural' in that it exists beyond space and time and is not ruled by the natural laws which govern processes within our"... 3-D... "universe. Descriptions of it sound remarkably similar to ancient spiritual teachings about the 'mind of God.' If"... " our minds truly are 'selecting' the things that happen in our world, then changing our minds should change what happens. At the level of everyday experience, this may well mean that people who put their faith in Love access a future where Love prevails over every form of suffering” (71) When channeling our creativity, we needn’t run from trouble or become defensive__ we can tune into Higher Self and find solutions offering the best for all.
Many of the things we fear eventually manifest because we trusted outside influences over our own inner guidance. Trust is vital for manifesting miracles because if we don’t trust Spirit Within Self, we cannot trust Spirit Within others; and soon we cannot trust Spirit at all. (72) Rather than assuming higher intervention will be automatic, we need to ask Spirit for assistance only when it's truly needed. We cannot expect Spirit to step in and perform miracles if we choose to do something foolish like seeing how fast we can drive or manifesting an object only to show off our creative skills. Higher Creativity is not meant for needless or frivolous purposes.
Fear fosters a sense of powerlessness, but we feel empowered when facing fear and acting to overcome it. As we conquer panic, we realize that we are “powerful beyond measure.” (71) Replacing fear with Love is the most challenging of all Basic Inner Technologies. Love must be both given and received. If we long for respect, acceptance, appreciation or affection, we must give the same to others. A family provides the best situation through which to learn about Love.
Can you recall some personal situation when you were totally sure about what to do, but didn’t know why?
The Angry Dogs
August, 1991: Hal and I stay overnight at the country home of our son Lynn and his wife Debbie.. The younger children tell us how a neighbor’s dogs bark, snarl and chase them, chewing on little four-year-old Nate’s pant legs. Both children are afraid of them, and Dana, age eight, has to pass them daily to and from the school bus stop.
I wake early in the morning. Debbie has left for work, but everyone else is asleep. I walk outdoors daily and strange dogs can sometimes be a problem. I’ve never been bitten but have had some close calls and wonder if someday it will really occur. I plan to walk before the day heats up, and once outside, I consider which direction to take. The dirt road into the desert looks inviting__ I’ve never been down it before. The black-topped road to the left is familiar, but the mean dogs live over that way. Higher Self says “If you go that way, those dogs will come out and bite you.” There’s absolutely no emotion attached; it’s simply a statement of fact.
To my astonishment, I turn toward the paved road and the mean dogs. Why am I doing this? I had a flash of the future and without making a conscious decision, I marched down that paved road, dead certain I’m about to have another “adventure”. Even though I stay on the far side of the road, all three dogs run to the fence, barking savagely. The larger white dog, a mix of Samoyed and Chow with the distinctive black mouth and tongue, ducks under the fence and runs up behind me, snarling and growling, baring its fangs.
Instead of my usual approach in such a situation, which is to stop, to project a sense of complete harmlessness and speak lovingly and softly to the animal in a high-pitched voice, I surprise myself again and take a truly defiant stance. I turn to face the dog, plant my feet firmly on the pavement, legs apart, hands on hips and just stare it down__ something I well know is the worst thing to do with an angry or fearful animal. I intend to abide by my principle of not harming this creature, but I’m not running from it either. This behavior works fine at first, and the dog calms down but does not back away. And as I slowly turn to walk on, it jumps up behind me and sinks its teeth into my leg. In fact, it drives its big canine teeth into my calf and shakes it like an old rag or bone. I yell and wave my arms until it lets go and runs back behind the fence, still barking and growling.
The skin is broken in several places; blood runs freely down my leg. I know I need medical attention and probably a tetanus shot. I just hope that dog isn’t rabid! I hobble back to the house. It’s Sunday and the hospital is twelve miles away. Hal drives me to the emergency room as I try to halt the flow of blood with a towel. Along the way we stop at the shop where the dogs’ owner works. I show her the wound and tell her how frightened my little grandchildren are of her dogs. She’s very apologetic, tells us to send her any medical bills and explains that “Lady” is getting old, suffering from arthritic pains and often grouchy. This incident makes them realize that something needs to be done about her.
Strangely, I never have a twinge of pain; not while being bitten, not limping down the road, not while riding in the car, not even when the doctor has to squeeze the wound hard to see if any foreign material is inside, and not during the following days when it becomes a mass of bruises extending six inches outwardly from the puncture. The doctor says animal bites often permanently discolor the skin around them. That wound bleeds openly for three weeks. Something is being “released”.
Sometime later, phoning friend, Penny, I mention my puzzlement over taking so aggressive an attitude and the fact that there never was the slightest bit of pain. Penny says, “You did it for your grandchildren; to protect them in the future.” I immediately know she is right. I also did it for Lady, too; she didn’t want to suffer outside through another winter’s wind and cold.
After the wound healed over, I ask Higher Self what to do about the discoloration. Castor oil was suggested, rubbed on twice daily, visualizing the skin clear and normal with love and forgiveness for both dog and self; within a year, the discoloration was gone. Only a white scar the size of a dime remained. H.S. suggested olive oil rubs to heal the scar. In two more years, the scar disappeared forever.
We can accept unusual outcomes as necessary lessons for our consciousness evolution without having to understand them. During the Age of Pisces, we needed to have faith in spiritual forces, but during the Age of Aquarius, we need to know them intimately and know the truth about them. The tremendous powers of Unconditional/Divine Love and Harmlessness were evolving within me.
When comparing other people’s reports of deliverance with my own, a pattern emerged:
* First: We need to assure ourselves that we’re all right in this present moment.
* Second: Much of our fear stems from the "unknown" and a lack of understanding, so during frightening predicaments, we first need to gather all the information we can on the subject.
* Third: We align with H. S, and take the fearful emotion to a higher level for release by emptying mind of all negative or positive emotions and connecting with the creative alpha state__ the Zone__ sensing an emotional shift into Forgiveness, Divine Love and a perfect sense of Harmlessness for all involved.
* Fourth: We state our need in positive words to structure a precise consciousness of it. Writing the Intention on paper is even better, as it grounds the idea onto the Earth plane. Stating the request aloud through the throat center can be still more powerful, projecting the vibrations into our DNA and into the immediate environment.
* Fifth: Ask for guidance, visualize the problem as already resolved__ and hold it steady until understanding arrives.
* Sixth: Feel the joy of the resolution, express gratitude and peacefully act on the guidance received just before the amazing reversal of fortune occurred. (71)
* Seventh: Hold a strong sense of wonder about what incredible, miraculous thing is going to come from this action. (72) Creative Force knows better than we just what needs to be done and exactly how to do it.
* Eighth: Take one physical action toward resolution without worrying about completing anything or dwelling on expectations. Just do it. * Ninth: Detach from it. Forget about it. Let Creative Force process.
It’s how we Intentionally Create. Our emotional nature and the environment change when resistance to negative feelings leaves.
Sometimes the outcome is not what we would have preferred. In the encounter with the angry dogs, the original conscious request was for guidance as to which road to take for my walk, but was tied with the higher consciousness desire to safeguard the children. Whatever we request of Spirit needs, in some way, to stem from higher, more inclusive intentions__ and higher intentions will always take priority over the lower.
If we find that a win-win solution fails to materialize, and one or even both parties are injured, have we expected Spirit/Creative Force to work for us rather than with us? Could we ourselves have taken more physical action towards manifesting a positive outcome? Did we listen to the inner voice and follow its suggestions? Others can be of help, but we alone need to initiate the courage to face our dragons. We must recognize, as in several of the mystical encounters that follow: We co-create with Spirit to make the magic happen by assisting with the necessary verbal, emotional and/or physical action, instead of depending entirely on Spirit to do it all for us, as is often the case with prayer alone.
Carolyn Myss says every time we give our power, our energy, away to a person or situation, our body loses its ability to regenerate a few thousand cells. When we encounter a situation over which we have little or no control, perhaps we might avoid trying to change it and instead, figure out how to live with it. (68) The key is to handle fearful situations without giving our power away. During the incident with Lady, I wanted something for myself; but it was for the grandkids, too. They couldn’t do it themselves and had expressed their fears to me. I had a flash of what could happen, but chose the danger out of love. I felt the fear, did it anyway, detached from the outcome, and took the first action__ a step down the road, willing to do the journey no matter what the outcome. My second action was to force a confrontation with the big dog, allowing Universe to manifest an outcome for the good of all. If I hadn’t been bitten, Lady would have, perhaps, one day seriously bitten my grandchildren. Lady was kept tied after that, and a few months later we heard she was put to sleep.The dogs were controlled, the grandchildren were safe and the lack of pain taught me a new lesson: Unconditional Love and courage for others may even overcome suffering.
Synchronicities__ incredible coincidences__ between our inner experiences and events in the outer world indicate when we are co-creating with Spirit, implying that consciousness and matter are not independent from each other and do indeed interact. A non-defensive position to new or disturbing ideas, opinions or feelings replaces competition with the creative skill of cooperation.
Fear disempowers, but Unconditional Love and Harmlessness neutralize fear and empower us. The adrenaline rush accompanying fear is the hormonal fuel that can be directed to project Love through our energy fields and arrange an environment in which miracles can occur.
When we truly love self and others, we will gladly take the journeys and the risks leading to an understanding and completion of the struggles before us. We take responsibility for our own emotions, cast no blame, are non-judgmental and avoid having a victim attitude. Our fears have a purpose in the flow of our lives, informing and directing us regarding our personal reasons for incarnating on Earth. As time goes on, we learn to process negativity faster and faster until we can do it in only a few days, hours or even minutes.
The next step for overcoming fear is experiencing Oneness__ Unity Consciousness with all involved__ and being empowered with higher levels of Love, ecstacy, compassion and power. Invoking Divine Love and Harmlessness means allowing the other fellow to make his own choices. Does that mean giving our free will away to others? Not if we view the situation from the collective consciousness of our Greater Self, which knows no “other fellow” or “me” exists__ there's only "one of us" here__ Creator. With a Unity Consciousness, we can co-create miracles with Spirit that not only transmute pain and suffering for ourselves and others, but for Earth and all life upon her, too. Can we really produce heaven on Earth for only a privileged, knowledgeable few, when most of the world is so clearly in need?
That sort of willingness__ allowing self to be a channel for higher purposes__ transmutes fear into Love and Harmlessness, moving self to new heights of emotion known as Divine Love or Compassion where ecstacy, precognition and miracles occur.
Walking With the Buffalo
October, 1981: Hal and I visit Yellowstone Park in the off-season when fewer people and more wild animals are around. Beside the snowy mid-October road, a group of male buffalo huddle together. Blanketed with white frost from a combination of the cold air and the warm stream beside them, they snort huge clouds of steam from their nostrils. I snap a few photos out the pickup truck window, not daring to go closer.
A little farther down the road, a herd of elk grazes near the Firehole River. Perhaps I can get close-ups with my zoom lens if I creep up on them through the lodgepole pines. Hal waits in the pickup as I sneak through the stand of tall, thin trees. Brittle,brown frozen grass beneath the pines scrunches under my feet. I spend a few minutes positioning myself for the best shot, adjusting the lens and focusing. But then I hear the grass crunching again__ is Hal joining me? Before I can turn around, something brushes against my arm, and as the hair rises on my neck, I slowly turn to find I'm in the midst of an entire herd of cow buffalo and calves walking beside and behind me.
Recalling grisly stories about people who foolishly came between female bison and their young, I’m paralyzed. These animals are as tall as a man. They weigh at least a thousand pounds each. It’s a mother buffalo rubbing against me, with her calf right behind. About twenty other mothers and youngsters are headed straight for me. I can smell them and feel their body heat.
I can’t fight and I certainly don’t dare run. I release all emotion and move into The Zone: “What now?” The inner voice answers: “Become a buffalo.” Not sure at first exactly what that means, I try to maintain a sense of harmlessness while the creatures walk, nod and nibble grass. As they slowly move past me, I love them and evoke Oneness by making myself feel as if I’m a buffalo, too. I lift each arm and leg in step with them, breathe with the same rhtyhm and even move my mouth as if munching grass. I gradually slow my pace, and in time the entire herd passes, heading for the warm river beyond.
Sighing with relief, I turn to see Hal standing at the edge of the road. “I just didn’t know what to do”, he says, eyes wide. “I was afraid to call out to you, afraid I’d startle them__ I thought the whole herd would attack!”
Again, as with the Portland Freeway encounter, fleeing or fighting was simply out of the question. I knew there were other options. I didn’t just believe it, I knew it and became non-attached to the outcome, willing to do the journey and take the risks to allow Creator’s intentions to manifest.
A shift in awareness influences the outcome of events. Know we already have what we need, feel the joy of it and express gratitude even before any change begins. Countering fear activates the magic and miracles of deliverance within the Creative Field's Flow where the potentials for any outcomes exist.
The Creative Skill of Detachment from the final results of creating allows for the powerful, intelligent, loving, self-organizing Force to ente. It is greater than the energetic sum of all the individuals, creatures, plants or minerals involved, and greater even than the normal 3-D laws of physics, for the laws of physics are different in higher dimensional realms:
Sauce for the Gander
Fairview Heights, Illinois, 1991: Our apartment sits across the street from a fifty-two acre park. Some huge domestic geese take up residency at the park’s lakefront and often harass joggers. One morning, several attack me on the first lap of my daily walk. One four-foot tall fellow actually comes up from behind, tries to bite my buns, but only catches the fabric of my shorts. I turn around and yell,“shoo”, clap my hands and stomp my feet to scare them away. Recalling the dog bite incident in Idaho a month earlier, I ask Higher Self, "What’s going on now?"
A knowingness seeps in: “As we raise our consciousness, our energy fields chang__ we vibrate more rapidly and more intensely. Animals can sense this and some feel threatened.”
Then a curious thing happens. On my second lap around the lake, I wonder how to deal with those big geese again. I consider finding a stick or some stones, but decide against attacks __that only insures more violence. As I start down the little hill to the lake bridge, I see there are now twelve big mean geese swimming in the middle of the lake. They pay no attention whatsoever to the many other walkers, but as soon as they spot me, they raise a ruckus, honking, squawking, and turning to swim very fast across the lake__ straight towards me!
I enter the Zone and project Harmlessness and Divine Love. Some of the wild Canadian Honkers, who nest at the lake in summer, are standing on the banks near me. When the angry birds begin to move across the water towards me, all the Canadian Honkers fly into the lake in front of them, beating their wings, keeping the other geese away. They remain there, splashing water while I circle the lake, before they leave. The mean geese climb out across the lake, seemingly to await my return to the top of the hill as I round the lake. I keep walking, slow my stride and “become a goose”, as I did with the buffalo. The birds ignore me completely. They don’t even honk or hiss, as is usual whenever anyone meets them on the walkway.
At the time this incident occurred, I could have left the park, but I was deliberately trying to learn how to surmount fear. I accepted that fear without fleeing and refused violence, wanting the best outcome for all involved. Rather than asking for magical protection, I requested understanding, and Creative Force obliged__ the energetics of the environment were miraculously changed. I was protected by some of Nature’s wild creatures and the domestic geese were not harmed, either. It may require numerous such attempts before major fears are overcome. All consequences__ positive or negative__ are feedback from the Universe.
Whenever we have a long-standing fear of something, there’s usually good reason for it. If we're still afraid after trying the above techniques, then perhaps we're not yet ready to deal with that fear. Perhaps the timing is not appropriate. Most long-standing fears can only be overcome by completely unselfish acts of love. When Higher Self knows we’re ready, life presents us with some specialized situation__ a challenge in which, through Divine Love, we will find the courage to overcome that fear. A phobia of heights might be allayed in a moment of heroism when a child is about to fall off a cliff, and out of love, we climb out on a precarious tree limb or dangle by a frayed rope to save her. We’ve then overcome our fear of heights, never giving it a thought because a someone was in danger, and we cared.
Even long-standing phobias can be overcome with higher love as we learn to deal with emotions that transcend time. Past life experiences can impact us with long-standing emotional traumas in our current life, usually through relationships. I did not fully understand where these mystical encounters were leading. I thought I was learning some kind of “magic” or “healing” until the Flower of Life workshop and the discovery of the Idaho Stargate in 1994.
Because of past-life negativity__ in particular, as a 14th century Cathar healer caught up in the Vatican’s and French King Phillip's extermination of the Knights Templars and their associates, the attending Inquisition, being tortured and burned at the stake, plus some minor residual harrassment in this lifetime about being a “witch”, I had a deep-seated dread that fully accepting, developing and honoring my often bizarre paranormal path might once again either bring persecution and harm to loved ones__ as occured with my family and friends in the Cathar lifetime__ or entirely alienate me from my family.
Because of that fear, it was 25 years before I moved back to Magic Valley where my children and grandchildren lived. In a strange sort of paradox, it was the “spiritual path” itself that brought confusion__ not because of what I was learning or doing, but because of my fear that what had once been, might again manifest. Because I dreaded a repeat of the Cathar horror, my fears came true when distrust and misunderstanding arose between myself and a dear son. I manifested it with my negative expectations. So what, then, was left to fear about relationships and past lives? I experienced it, dealt with it and survived after all. Incidents in Arizona set off a chain of events that moved us back to Gooding, Idaho, where the family and I are lovingly integrated once more.
The Spiritual Warrior
The highest possible level of mastering fear is to overcome the notions implanted by organized religions about "origiinal sin"; or that we must "suffer" to reach "heaven" only after we die physically, rather than to evolve spiritually and gain complete trust in the guidance and infinite goodness of Spirit Within. Manifesting at this level begins when we become the Spiritual Warrior. This is not the role of a soldier, gladiator or Kung Fu master, but of an individual who battles to eliminate his own inner weaknesses and conflicts, rather than blame the people and the reality around him. He has “developed his own powers of body-spirit through tremendous discipline. He has developed himself, his thoughts and his senses to be able to perform at his peak or beyond it, not in service to some military aggressor, but to Spirit, to the Creative Force of the universe. This kind of ‘warrior’ is exemplified in the practice of Tai Chi, in which no blow is struck, yet a foe is deflected.” (6)
David Zucker says: “The basic premise is that you understand your own body’s energy completely first, and then you understand the other person’s, so if someone is aiming a blow at you, you’re so totally not there, you empty yourself completely, which is the meditative aspect".... "You empty yourself so you have no ego about it, no fear of life or death, so you kind of become the other person. If I were trying to punch my own hand, I couldn’t do it because I’d know exactly when I’m going to do it. So if I were as in tune with you as you are with yourself, you couldn’t hit me because I would be able to sense that energy coming and just move.”
The Spiritual Warrior feels a tremendous sense of love and compassion for all life. When she realizes that anything is possible if based on Divine Unconditional Love, she transforms into the fourth level of mastering fear: the Spiritual Magician__ a miracle-worker who not only evades injury and deflects anger, but uses her skills to both create and heal.
The Spiritual Magician
Frustrations arise when we’ve repeatedly tried to tame our inner dragons and it doesn't work out according to our plan__ we find we must try again and again. Perhaps what we really seek is an even more inclusive level of dealing with fear__ one beyond just knowing how to protect ourselves in difficult situations; a level that prevents dangerous situations from manifesting in the first place.
Approaching life from the Observer Stage of Consciousness Evolution__ a more scientific attitude__ we use our everyday environment as if it were a laboratory. When Life brings us difficulty, we can try a different approach and watch what happens. If that doesn’t work, we try another way, observe its outcome, and then try another and another if necessary, until final resolution or at least a piece of the puzzle is found.
The Spiritual Magician, working from Unconditional Love for all, trusts himself, Creative Force and Spirit completely, using his personal creative energy to bring Spirit’s energy down through self to accomplish healing and creating. As we tame our fear dragons with Love, we feel more alive. We see ourselves growing in consciousness and many difficulties automatically shift. New situations and new people enter our lives, responding to us in more positive ways. (71)
Fear of the Dark
Controlling factions in this world benefit from keeping us in fear. Fear is often used to manipulate us mentally, economically, politically, sexually, educationally and even religiously or spiritually. When viewing TV or reading, be aware of how fear is used to push us in certain directions, even if only to buy a new snack food, new medication, a particular automobile, to join some elite group, or support some new political or military agenda. When fear dominates our creative potentials, it prevents us from accessing those states of mind allowing attunement to Higher Self and Spirit.
A major fear of mankind has been that we are powerless in the face of dark forces. Somewhere along our path of consciousness evolution, we will find ourselves challenged by dark forces__ reflections of our shadow sides__ those parts of ourselves, still unrecognized, over which we fear we have no control. We are all facing that fear right now. This represents our collective fear as a human species, for dark forces have been written and talked about for millennia with little understanding of where they come from or what they really are.
Intuition activates miracles beyond logic and reason. Even if another person threatens bodily harm, miracle workers love that individual__ and themselves__ unconditionally. (69) They enter the Zone as when meditating or painting, intuitively attuned to Spirit/ Creative Force. When we refuse to channel that lofty energy, we experience confusion. When we allow it to flow through us, we have the comfortably secure feeling of being a co-creator.
The Sorcerer’s Apprentice
A most bizarre encounter occurs when I visit my friend Sherry at her shop in Arco, Idaho, where she provides metaphysical and spiritual books, alternative healing remedies, and space for metaphysical and spiritual seminars.
Soon after I arrive, a former astrology client enters and introduces us to her new husband. We catch up on the intervening years, and the hubby, “Rusty” [fake name] soon feels free to discuss some deep fears, relating two recent incidents in California which distressed him greatly. His worst fear stems from his year-long apprenticeship with a Native American shaman in California. Rusty says he was taught many things, but became terrified when he realized the shaman was controlling him, and he couldn’t break free. He’d seen the shaman use his powers to put “curses” on other people, and the results were horrifying. Rusty left the apprenticeship because he didn’t want to go down that dark path, but lived in constant fear that this sorcerer, who hadn’t wanted him to leave, would harm him from a distance.
I tell Rusty that no magic, black or white, can be used on an individual unless they themselves, on some inner level, agree to it. Rusty vehemently denies this, relating how the shaman cast his spells and what happened to his victims. Rusty says he himself has learned how to do this, and successfully used it to create minor irritations to certain individuals, but refuses to do great or lasting harm to anyone.
I tell him about the power of Unconditional Love and Harmlessness, trying to reassure him he’ll remain safe while using those emotions. But, clearly, believing he is powerless against evil, Rusty becomes agitated, raises his voice, jumps up and down and flings his arms around wildly. He shouts that no one would believe it unless they had experienced it for themselves.
Inwardly, I attune to Higher Self, asking what, if anything, can be done to teach the power of Love to this young man and help him overcome his fears. Incredibly, I find myself telling Rusty to please project his magical powers onto me as a teaching example, if he can really do so. Dark forces can only impact us with unresolved karma, so here was the opportunity for me to overcome a residue of my past life fears about the Cathar lifetime. Once we know how to activate a power and use it, we no longer have to keep doing it just to prove to ourselves that we can, and I know that no one has authority to open my solar plexus except myself.
Rusty thinks for few minutes, visibly perspiring as he struggles with his conscience. His wife becomes so upset, she leaves the shop, and Sherry busies herself in the back room__ safely out of the way of stray energies. Rusty and I are alone in the front of the empty shop. He agrees, and we look into each other’s eyes.
He seems to be working himself up into an extremely emotional state. As for me, I become One with Rusty, listen for inner guidanceand radiate Unconditional Love and Harmlessness toward both of us, as with the buffalo, being sure not to feel, think or act defensively in any way, or to resist his projections. I’ll just let whatever Rusty sends pass right on through me, as did the semi on the Portand freeway.
After about five minutes, Rusty comes out of his emotional state. He says he’s finished. I’m surprised__ I felt nothing at all. He seems confused, exhausted and deflated. I ask if he’s all right. Then, claiming he put a “timer” on the spell and it won’t activate until later, he refuses to say when this will be. I smile inside myself and wish him well as he quickly leaves the shop.
Months, even years pass, but no spell or curse manifests.
I’m astonished. Again, I did something I normally wouldn’t dream of doing. I trusted the power of Unconditional Love and demonstrated it to Rusty, who believed he was helpless against dark forces. But I, too, learned: To use Unconditional Love and Harmlessness and Become as One with an opponent, shifts us to a higher level of co-creative bonding wherein we are literally, One Being, and unless the projector wishes to harm himself also, he cannot project darkness.
As co-creators, we understand that Spirit sees larger roles for us than we can presently perceive. I sincerely believe Spirit’s greater agenda for Earth is to promote Love, peace and healing for all creatures, an expanded goal that will soon over-ride selfish intents or elitism. We need to ask for the magic only when our personal need is linked with higher purposes. In any case, whether the consequences bring profound disappointment or rapture, we still have to be willing to do the journey and accept the results, however painful or over-whelming they may be.
The search for love and truth goes on. Maybe there is always going to be more to learn about courage. No one person has all the answers. Even after personal dreads have been cleared, life hatches new dragons to tame, more frogs to kiss, more "mean dogs" to face. Earth supports and nurtures us, despite the fact that on this planet, only Mankind deliberately fouls its own nest. If we didn’t damage and destroy Earth and each other as we do, perhaps we wouldn’t be afraid that someone or something else will one day do the same to us.
We’ve created a civilization based on fear and greed The greater intent for the recent earth changes, natural disasters, terrorist attacks, health, environmental, economic and energy difficulties, is to keep nudging all species upon the planet towards the understanding that we are all One Great Energetic Being with the free will and power to re-create a heaven on Earth, based only on Love, Peace and Oneness.
Courage, Love and Harmlessness in the face of danger may be only the first condition for overcoming all fear. When we perform creative acts appropriately, we enter the stillness and Become as One, if only for the time required for that particular transformation. Perhaps we need to Become the Oneness, Love and Peace ourself, rather than performing intentions to protect ourselves after the need arises.
The final goal in mastering fear requires Complete Trust in Spirit Within. But how do we develop that Trust? Above all, be aware that darkness always leads to Light. Our ability to create new personalities and lifestyles at will, leads to trust in ourselves. Then, instead of using the magic purely for personal protection, we become channels for Universal purposes and find miracles of deliverance spontaneously occurring around us. We may need to master all the Inter-Dimensional Technologies __Basic and Expanded__ before we’re able to completely trust our Spirit Within. When that Trust overcomes all fear, we shall than have Peace on Earth.
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Chapter 7: Credits
(6) Wakefield, Dan: Creating From Within Spirit: Living Each Day as a Creative Act 1996. Ballnatine Books, Random House, New York.
(67) Fanning, Arthur, channeling Zoosh. “Retraining the Monkey-Mind, Part Two: Ecstacy”. Sedona: Journal of Emergence.
Sept. 1997. P. O. Box 684, Cornville, AZ. 86325.
(68) Myss, Carolyn. “Three Levels of Power and How to Use Them”. Sounds True, Inc. 1998. Louisville, CO 80027.
(69) Braden, Gregg. “Tools for Technologies”. Audio. Laura Lee Radio Show. www.lauralee.com
(70) Harman, Willis. "Action". Institute of Noetic Sciences. 101 San Antonio Rd., Petaluma, CA 94952.
(71) Miller, Carolyn G., PhD. “Creating Miracles: Understanding the Experience of Divine Intervention.” Catalyst magazine.
May/June, 1995. Vol. 7, No. 3. 42 Adrian Court, Burlingame, CA 94010.
(72) Walsh, Anthony. The Science of Love. 1966. Prometheous Books, 59 John Glenn Drive, Amherst, NY 14228.
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